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Parent Judgement

This is a Melt down.

Did the adult in this situation, based on limited data available to the casual observer, make good parenting choices? Maybe not.

I  would like people to consider that they do not have all of the facts and that it is likely unfair to judge. I  say this coming from experience with a kid like this. I’ve experienced major melt downs. Ones where I feared for the safety of anyone near my kid. One where I felt the safest choice was to call for police assistance.  More than one where I felt helpless and could only cry. Many, especially in the early days, where I made poor parenting choices. Many where I’m sure someone judged me poorly.

My only point is that we have a very brief glimpse into this family’s lives. Please don’t judge.

Relationship With Ex

I’ve been told by professionals that my ex and I are handling our co-parenting relationship very well, with focus on the boys instead of ourselves.  This is coming from a psychologist who councils parents who are sent to him from divorce court, so he sees the worst of the worst.  I’m very thankful for that.

Ex’s mom died this January and this weekend the family gathered for a graveside service in her honor.  This meant that I spent an entire day with him, trapped for almost six hours on the road.  It was the first significant amount of time we’ve spent together since late last year and we were in a place in time where we were willing to just be friends.

There are many good qualities about my ex.  He is kind.  Sincere.  Supportive.  Structured.  Funny.  Sweet.  Intelligent.  But I believe I’m at a point far enough beyond my grieving the death of our relationship that I can appreciate the good and understand his characteristics that make him a less than ideal match for me – without thinking that he is a bad person.

He is the type of person who comes to a solution, let’s say, and then has a very difficult time letting go of his solution.  We each talked about our new romantic partners and I noticed a trend that he tries to take charge of things in her life.  She is young and inexperienced enough that she may appreciate that quality in him.  I am at a point in my life that it just rubs me the wrong way because I want to do it my way and just have someone accept that.  And finally, he is at a point in his life that he thrives off of being needed.

All in all, I think that our long ride together yesterday was good for both of us, and good for our kids.  They got to see their parents enjoying conversation together in spite of the fact that they are divorced.

The Lie

I’ve been on all sides of the triangle of deceit. The side where I have an opportunity to fess up and didn’t.  The side where I’ve given unintentional opportunities for someone to confess to me.  And the side where I’ve decided that I need to be, to fess up to uncomfortable truths.

I’m on that final side because I’ve been lied to too many times.  Sometimes it was outright lies, but most of the time it was lying by omission.  It hurts either way.

On to what triggered the posts I’ve made today.

I’ve mentioned that my ex has a girlfriend and spends a LOT of time with her.  On our ride home from school yesterday, youngest was saying he ate lunch with his dad and saw a lady from work.  He said his dad gave the lady some good advice.  I think this was the 2nd time I’d heard this story, but my ears perked up because it seemed like they ate lunch with this lady.  So I texted ex and asked if by chance youngest had met his girlfriend.  Yep.

Why wasn’t I informed?  I was pretty upset.

Got home and was trying to go for a walk to cool down, but oldest knew I was upset and kept after me.  He asked if I was upset at his dad and then said, “Oh, is this about that girl from dad’s work that was here?”

I flipped.  He had his girlfriend in MY house.  Ok – we both own the house.  But why the hell did he need to have her here?  Oldest gets home from school early on Wednesday and notices his dad is home and in the basement.  Goes down there and his dad is sending the girlfriend out the back door to leave.

That was bad, but is NOT the worst part for me.  Earlier yesterday I emailed him about some things and he emailed back and said “I am thinking about introducing the boys.”

That is the lie.  At a minimum, youngest has “met” her because he had lunch with them.  And oldest has at lease “seen” her.  It feels like it should have been a perfect opportunity for him to say, “Hey, the boys have already met / seen her.  I’m sorry I didn’t let you know ahead of time.  I just didn’t know you’d be upset.”

Back to the conversation with oldest.  He was horrified because he felt like he told on his dad and he begged me not to say anything that would let his dad know he spilled the beans.

I’m sooooo sorry for him.  His dad should have been the one to spill the beans.  I worry this will be with him for the rest of his life.  He’s scarred!

YOLO – The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly!

Nemo touching the boat.
Nemo touching the boat.

YOLO – you only live once – became popular in the teen crowd sometime in 2012.  The concept vaguely resembles carpe deim, except that actions in the name of YOLO are often done without regard to consequences.  With YOLO, the focus is on doing something now because you might not get the chance tomorrow.  It promotes reckless behavior.  Wikipedia defines carpe deim:  “The ode [Odes 1.11] says that the future is unforeseen and that one should not leave to chance future happenings, but rather one should do all one can today to make one’s future better.”

YOLO in Music

  • Ke$ha, Die Young: “let’s make the most of the night like we’re gonna die young”
  • Ne-Yo, Give Me Everything Tonight: “Give me everything tonight. For all we know, we might not get tomorrow, let’s do it tonight.”
  • The Lonely Island, YOLO: parody of being safe and anti-yolo.
  • Drake, The Motto: very nasty song, half of which I don’t really understand.  But it seems VERY disrespectful to others, especially women – all in the name of YOLO.

YOLO as an excuse for bad decisions

  • Getting drunk and later regretting a bad decision, or acting like you don’t regret it.
  • Going out with “the guys” or “the girls” and staying out all night drinking or doing drugs because you’re mad at your partner.
  • Having an affair because you’re not getting your needs met by your spouse or partner.
  • Making a bad choice to spite someone who cares about you (like a parent or spouse).
  • Skip school, because after all – YOLO.

YOLO for the good (carpe deim)

  • Don’t leave it to chance that the person you love will always love you.  Treat that person nice today.  Meet that person’s needs now to ensure their love continues.  Show that person you care.
  • Work hard today to gain the notice of your boss and increase the potential for good job duties or promotion.
  • Don’t wait until tomorrow to connect with your kids.  Tomorrow they will be teenagers, or off to college, or busy with a friend (maybe making poor choices in the name of YOLO) – and it will be that much harder to connect.
  • Don’t wait until tomorrow to tell your elderly parents that you love them.  Tomorrow might be too late, so visit them today (or at least call).
  • Don’t wait until tomorrow to learn how to communicate better with your partner.  The sooner you admit that you need help with this difficult skill, the sooner you can improve your relationship.

I could list a million more examples (maybe I exaggerate a bit), but I just don’t have the time nor the space on this blog.  Help yourself and your kids to focus the YOLO on positives!!!

School Lockdown

An incident occurred today near several schools in my district.  Here is a news story, for details.  I would have been clueless about this incident to this moment, if I hadn’t visited the district website looking for some calendar information.  I think that I am mostly OK with that, but also a little peeved.

Here is a Facebook post that the district released after the guy was caught and the schools were taken off of lockdown status.  The vast majority of respondents thanked the district for handling the situation so well.  Many complained that parents were not notified while it was happening.

Deep down I think that they handled the situation well.  If they had notified parents right away, the streets around the area would have become clogged.  This situation had a very quick turn around.  I think that at some point it would be necessary to notify parents immediately, but I’m not sure what circumstances would make that needed.

I’m interested in hearing your thoughts.  Please be nice.  If I feel like a comment is an attack or presented in an insulting way, I will not approve the comment.

Judging Others

We all do it. Some more than others. Some admit it. Some don’t.

I used to be judgemental specifically of parents. Particularly before I had kids. See, it is easy to judge harshly when you have no experience or appreciation for what you are judging. Standards can be ridiculously high. Especially when you are young.

I have learned a lot since having my own kids. Number one being that I don’t have all the facts, only those I observe, and those can be misinterpreted.

I have had so many parenting moments where I could be judged negatively. Some would be deserved but many others would not. Some examples:

– I once had a toddler immediately run like a madman the moment we entered a department store.  I was livid, mainly as a reaction to the fear I felt.
– I have been seen spanking and yelling at my kids in public. Yes, deserved judgement. But thankfully there was no interference from people around me. I am better able to cope with my anger and frustrations now.
– I once had to call 911 for assistance with my 8 year old special needs kid. Unfortunately it was at a busy gas station with a Greyhound bus stop. Those people got a good show of the crazy mom trying to contain her out of control child. And I bet more than a few judged me poorly. NOT deserved. Thankfully we got very understanding police officers to help.
– My kids had recurring ear infections when they were babies. A neighbor lady (who is NOT a mom and never will be) boldly stated that she could have my first cured of ear infections in a week. Ummm, yea. Not deserved. I never told her that we ultimately took both for tubes at the tender age of 13-14 months.

I find that I am so much more understanding of others now, especially other parents.

Family Relationship Health

Circumplex Model
Circumplex Model

How healthy is your family relationship?

How cohesive is your family relationship?  Are you disengaged, enmeshed, or somewhere in between?

How flexible is your family relationship?  Is it chaotic, rigid, or somewhere in between?

If you have a guess to these answers, how can you know if that means your family relationship is healthy or needs some level of rework?

Why should you care?

  • Understanding your family’s location on this model can help you target specific areas for improvement.
  • When you are having troubles with teens, evaluate the level of cohesiveness and flexibility.  Are you disengaged but have strict rules and family roles? Perhaps growing your relationship with your teen would make those rules seem more acceptable.
  • Are you and other family members slowly growing apart from each other?
  • Is one or more family members feeling squashed and in need of more “Me” and less “We?”
  • Is someone in the family desperately lonely?
  • Are the kids confused about who is in charge?

My Family 3 Years Ago

We were not in a happy place.  Our youngest had been diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome (Autism – basically).  I was obsessed first with finding a cure (although I didn’t realize it at the time) and then with finding ways to help him.  Communication between hubby and I was like communication between roommates – not like two people in love who share parenting.  We were firmly planted in the Structurally Disengaged section, which is not the healthiest but also not the worst.  That spot works well for some families and not so well for others.  It was not working for us.

Room for Improvement

So, what was NOT working for us?  Were we too structured or too disengaged?  Where did we want to move on this chart?  We never sat down and specifically talked about that, but your family may like that approach.  Based on LOTS of conversation over the past 8 months or so, we determined that we were too disconnected.  We were two independent people with little loyalty and little closeness.  This left the door open for major family and marital problems to happen.  We needed to move into the Structurally Connected or the Flexibly Connected section.

Where are we now?

I’m not entirely sure, but I do know that we are no longer Disengaged.  It started with hubby and me moving more and more into the connected realm.  I would put the 2 of us in the Structurally Connected region.  We spend a lot of time together now, whereas 3 years ago it was me & the kids and hubby took off for various hobbies on his own.  We have a much higher degree of loyalty to each other because now we talk about things instead of pretending nothing is wrong.  We make a LOT more decisions together now, especially regarding family.

Where We Are Moving

We may never move out of the Structurally Connected region, but we still have work to do on where we are as a family.  We are slowly working on our individual relationship with our kids and working on whole family relationship.  We have a significant amount of time where we are unplugged in the late afternoon and a large chunk of the weekend.  This helps us do more things together, thereby increasing our connection.  Here’s pictures from a recent rocket launch we had as a family.

The Boys!
The Boys!
Rocket Prep
Rocket Prep
Post Landing Recovery!
Post Landing Recovery!